Sunday, January 1, 2012
Good morning, 2012.
I think New Year's Eve is overrated. It's my least favorite holiday. It's possible that I have written about this before in the archives of this blog's five years, but I don't really feel like checking. I just feel like saying I don't like New Year's Eve.
It's so high pressure.
First there's the dating scene. If you're married or with someone, then you're supposed to have some fine, exquisite plan to ring in the new year, something memorable and remarkable. Something to tuck away so you can later say, "Remember New Year's Eve 2007?" And you can knowingly smile and nod.
Then there's the resolution scene. What do you wish you could do better? What do you wish you would do more of, less of, and ultimately what might make you a better person? If you're not the type of person to ask yourself these questions on a daily basis, then really, why wait until it's time to buy a new calendar?
I woke up somewhat cynical this morning. Perhaps you can read it in my tone.
You have taught me much. I had no idea how strong I could be, how complete I truly am. I didn't know a heartbreak could last so long, that joy could mean so much. I didn't know. You taught me. Together we learned.
Of all of my years, behind and before, I am confident I will never, ever forget you. Even though now, I barely remember you. I think your pieces will come together in my mind. On the timeline of my life, your numbers will be thick and bold. Remember that year? It was thick and bold.
I finish your last page, but I don't really close your book, because you seamlessly spill into today, a new year. (Plus, I went to bed at 8:15, long before your official farewell.)
And that brings me to you, 2012. Twenty-twelve. Look at you, already with the two names.
I imagine you have a thing or two to teach me. Please don't give me a bulleted, itemized list. No syllabus. It's better if I don't know. Just, please, be kind. And most of all, be patient.
Let's try a million recipes this year. Let's become good friends with Betty Crocker. Let's see what else there is out there besides chicken.
This will be my year of the baked goods. I already have the ingredients for double chocolate chip cookies (with dried cherries in them - how about that? We'll see.), a strawberry pie, and a coconut cream pie. Let's bake. And let's love people with what comes out of the oven.
Maybe we'll write a book together this year, you and me, 2012. I've gotta tell you: 2011 and I have a solid start. But I welcome your insights.
January 1, 2012. Let's do this thing.