Wednesday, January 19, 2011

"You are Amazing."

"You are amazing," they say. I hear this quite a bit.

An amazing woman. Amazing mom. Amazing wife. Amazing believer.

I assure you: I feel far from amazing. And truly, I am not the one who should amaze you.

It's just that I serve an amazing God, who is equipping, empowering, constant, and gracious.

This amazing God is the one who gave me courage to hold Robb and listen to his final breath, to hold on to that sound in my memory for as long as it will stay.

This amazing God is the one who gives me life and breath, who holds it in his hands and shares it with me.

This amazing God gives me strength and words to answer my children when they ask honest questions about who we are, what we will do, where Daddy is, and what happens next. Only God knows.

This amazing God is no less amazing when I cannot speak, cannot open my eyes, cannot stop shaking, cannot get out of bed.

This amazing God will let nothing separate me from him, even my inability to love him back. Because right now, it is all I can do to let him love me. And still he does.

This amazing God is showing us all that there is life after your worst nightmare comes true, that he is faithful to bring a sunrise the next day. That he loves his daughters and cares for them.

It's my God who is amazing.

May he be glorified, magnified, exalted, and known as he leads me through this valley.

12 comments:

Dawne said...

Amen, Tricia! He is an amazing, faithful Father. May He continue to uphold you in His grace.

my3boys said...

Yes He is! (And you, my friend, are made in HIS image!)

thewonderfulhappens said...

He is amazing....but it doesn't make you any less so.

Mrs. MK said...

I'm with you. God is the Awesome One, and he shows his beauty and strength through some pretty crummy vessels, yes?

Ker-Bear said...

Yes he is amazing! But even when you think you are not able to love him back, you are. You are sharing his love to all of us on a daily basis. You are sharing his strength with us. You are sharing, your pain, sorrow, hopelessness, and God's hope with us. Whether you realize it or not you are sharing God's love with us, it may not be intentional but it is happening none the less. You are loving God back with the wonderful gift he blessed you with, your gift of writing. You with God are Amazing, and do not let anyone tell you otherwise.

Kay Day said...

Amen.
God is glorified.

The Kennedy Krew said...

Praise the Lord! What a beautiful sentiment!!!!

Jon Jameson said...

Thank you!

Terry said...

it must be that this truly amazing god gives you the strength right at the very moment you need it and it is hard for me to understand because i have never had such a loss..
sometimes when i have wondered, even though i know god loves me..do i really love HIM and then i read this verse.
1 John 4:19
"We love him, because he first loved us."
we are so weak sometimes that god has to tell us that we DO love him even though sometimes it doesn't feel like it.
i can see that you love the lord dearly dear tricia...you really do......love terry

Kathleen said...

Amen!!! His truth shining through you. Thank you for letting us get of glimpse of Him in you.

Jenndiggy said...

Someone told me recently I am an amazing woman because of something I've been through. I hadn't been able to put it into words, but you did. It's Him that is amazing!

Brad said...

The more I read your words, the more I realize that God is the same God for you and me and everyone, yesterday, today and forever. I have felt the same way as you describe here - like everyone is commending me for being so strong, as if it's on my own account. Having lost a spouse like we have, I often tell people that my response is simply a spiritual reflex - like hitting the knee of the Holy Spirit within us. It sounds like we're in the same place: we don't want the credit, and we're just so glad that God deserves all the credit. Praise Him for that!