Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Victory: A Whole Year Of It


I feel tremendously victorious today.

Morning after,
just finished a marathon,
dance the speakers off the wall,
conquer the world,
victorious.

The first year is finished.
I did it.
A whole year of it.

I am not naive to say this next year will be a cake walk.
In fact, I have heard and expect that in some ways the second year is harder because the heart begins to thaw, the soul begins to feel, and one begins to wake up all over again.

But, in the past year, I have woken up each day and wondered how I would do it, get through it, make it back to bed at the end of the day.  The year's holidays stockpiled against me, one on stop of another, threatening me with their mocking dates with every turn of the calendar page.

I don't have to worry as much about those, because I've met them once already.  Now I know what to expect for Valentine's, birthdays, anniversaries, and seasons.  This doesn't mean I love it.  It just means I've smelled the dragon's hot breath, and I can withstand the heat.

And now I know that every single day, the best and the worst, only lasts for 24 hours.

Today, I feel victorious.  I did it.  A whole year of it.

12 comments:

tanyasz said...

Amazing!

Angie said...

Rejoicing with you!!

Amy said...

I have followed your blog for almost a year now.. You have amazed me with your strength and encouraged me with your candidness. Thank you for sharing your journey with us...

Candice said...

You DID it!! Love it! :)

Terri Fisher said...

Congratulations...you DID do it! Many blessings on the next leg of your journey!

JESSICA RENSHAW said...

AMEN!

cindyb63 said...

And I am SO VERY PROUD of you - - - I absolutely KNEW within the very depths of my heart - that you COULD and WOULD. I love you !

Kyle Estepp said...

I AM MORE THAN PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!! And I love you so much!!

momof3 said...

So glad the "bigness" of the date didn't awallow you.. rejoicing with you : )

Terry said...

i am really amazed and respecting of you dear tricia..not only have you been victorious, you have been a blessing to so many people...i am forever grateful to connie for bringing you into my life just over a year ago now...god will continue to bless you and those precious boys..love terry

Janeen said...

Brava! and blessings... thrilled that this season didn't crush you as threatened - walk in victory, there's a garden just outside the empty tomb.

Patty Kline said...

You are victorious, Tricia, and in Christ, you shall continue to be!